so 2013 is here, and there has been a lot going on.
this year, there have been many changes, many things that have happened, and yes,we've finished a quarter of the year already.
there has been many things on my mind, work, IB, but I can't help but think that there's something I wish I had that I've never had before.
for those who actually read this still, and not my tumblr, then you'll probably know.
there are just things that I think of that I don't say.
sometimes, well...
I wish there was an occasion where I'm completely allowed to be spoilt rotten and selfish, you know, throw everything back for a day and let people adore and love me like I'm some bratty princess.
I've always dreamed of throwing a big birthday bash and inviting my whole class with everyone showing up and then I get to have a table chock-full of presents that I cannot count with all my fingers, and then I'll have a sleepover with my favourite girlfriends and we'll all talk about nonsensical girly stuff on a king sized bed and all that spoilt whatnots, but no. It's not gonna happen.
I'm not saying that I don't appreciate what I already have. It's just that, I don't have all that many friends, or at least I don't have all that many people to invite anyway. I'm not a child anymore, and I have to grow up.
I wish I could hug a giant teddy bear to sleep on a big, comfy bed and sleep for as long as I want to in the comfort of my large bedroom and wake up to a sunny happy day with a puppy running towards me but no, just no.
I wish that when I cried a random prince will just appear in front of me and tell me that he wants to see my smiling face because it's pretty and all that cheesy nonsense but no, I live in reality.
is it wrong that I have these thoughts? It's selfish, conceited and maybe even disgusting.


but how I wish that for once, I could be a pampered, spoilt little girl with nothing to care about.

A butterfly landed.7:20 AM
I love the way you are.♥