Surprise! It's November

School is out! :)
and I've been in a great mood recently :)
But at times like these, I start to think of things that aren't important… things like… … …
It's been a cool year, 10 months has passed like a breeze!
Looking back, there were both bad and good memories. 2012 has been a pretty interesting year for me because of the church.
2012 LEGACY was epic. This year's camp passed WAYYY quicker than last year's.
and now I'm official! 16 haha.
darn I wish I could be 16 forever. Sounds like a pretty good idea to me. But I guess life goes on? I don't really have much to say, sometimes I feel like my life is generally boring in stark comparison to those people on TV.
I guess I'm pretty low-profile. But I do notice a lot of things around me, and sometimes I just pretend that I don't know for the sake of maintaining normality…
I'm not as "slow" as people think I am. True, I don't keep up with trends as well as my friends do, but it doesn't mean that my interpretive abilities are equally ignorant. I do realise what generally happens around me most of the time. It's just that, sometimes I pretend that I don't know because I don't want to make things awkward between people.

I do like being ignorant of certain things too. I don't feel the need to know everything unless it regards my friends or myself, or people I'm interested in.

my point of saying this is to tell people that I'm no fool. Sometimes, I feel that some people treat me too lightly with no importance because they feel that i'm someone who "doesn't know anything." But I do. I just choose to live the way I want to.

Well, I guess I don't have any major upcoming trips. I'm not going to Israel this year… ):
Reason? well if anyone wants to know they can just ask me…
I think I need more friends/good publicity haha. Sometimes when I need help from the people around me I find that I don't actually know anyone in certain situations…


Since I don't usually do this, I guess now is a good time to talk about something that has been bothering me for some time.

I have a friend, whom I met in my old church when I was 9 going on to 10. He is three years older than me and I remember his name and face. I did like him very much as a friend, but one day for unknown reasons I never saw him ever again, and I never knew it would be the last time I would ever see him. I always felt sad, even when I had lots of favour and new found friends in my new church, that i never got to say goodbye properly.

We talked a lot as kids and I never actually understood what he told me when I was young, but I remember what he said and when I think about it now, I know what he means.
He always said that he felt like "a black sheep" wherever he went, and that he just never found the motivation to do things in life because "everyone stares at me with that kind of look."
I don't remember much, but as a kid I was really aloof and dense and right now I think back and I regret for not understanding and not saying things I should have said. At least, he attended church last time and in the church there was imperfection, but still, there was good company, but now, I don't know where he is and I heard a lot of strange things about him.

My parents never approved of him as a friend, and now when I think back, I guess I could understand why. I never saw him again, but I heard that he went wayward and mixed with bad company. I even heard that now, he's a father? I hope this isn't true, because he's only 19. and I'm not saying that it's bad, but to settle down at 19 in a place like Singapore? I'm not too sure about that.

I regret not understanding what he said last time. perhaps, if I did, I could direct him back to Jesus, and then maybe, he would be saved from the darkness? I don't know. If he's happy, then I guess I'm happy for him… but is he really happy? with what is at hand? I don't know.
I just want to say this to anyone who reads this, if you have a friend like that, please do something, save him or her from the darkness of this world, don't keep quiet.

and if you are one of the people who feel this way, like you never fit in, you're always being bullied… well, the Shine auditorium at shaw towers is open for service every 11 am on sundays, you're not alone, and there are people in church who will love you for who you are, and Jesus is here for everyone. He is for you too.

Lastly, if you are somehow that friend that I was talking about and somehow, somewhere in the world you are reading this, I hope you remember who "Danielle" is. And please don't go any further with any of those bad friends anymore… I am truly sorry that I never understood what you said. But I do now, and I hope that wherever you are, may you know that Jesus really loves you and you are precious to him, don't do anything stupid with your life.

A butterfly landed.8:22 PM
I love the way you are.♥