To the people who actually read my blog, I salute you. Not many people actually do concern themselves with me.

Sometimes I feel like a deep, dark person. I don't think I'm that easily read. There are many things that I don't tell the world, for many reasons normal people won't even think of. People think they know many things about me, but what they know about me is only the tip of the iceberg, the surface. I wish to say this in the ironic hopes that people will understand me better, but not label me as 'predictable'. I do feel that in my everyday conversations, I speak colloquially to adapt to my environment and be on the same level of communication as my friends, but this is my real voice. I don't think I am the same.
maybe it's my ego, or what, that causes me to feel that I am different. But the more I look at it, I just am. I do like things that other girls like, I do enjoy activities such as shopping too, after all, it's a thing most girls would do. But unlike them, beyond the surface I do think. And I don't just think about boys and girls and gossip. I think about other things. I used to be someone so different, it surprises me to think that now, the predicament I'm in can only involve God. I have to remind myself that Jesus is always the center of everything.
I don't wish to complain about my parents. But I wish to tell every person that reads this to be grateful for their parents. Although your parents my imperfect and all, they have given me the best of what they could provide which is love. Although my parents make things difficult for me sometimes, I by Jesus' love understand that they do it out of my interest and not harm, even if they don't know they will still try.
I don't want to be a loud and noisy girl. I want to be one with a gentle and quiet spirit, a woman of GOD. I want to stay by the LORD's side and forever be with him, and people will know that he loves me.
And unfortunately that's exactly why I think not many people would concern themselves with me. But I think I'd rather be right with GOD than men. It's a long story.
Secondly, I'm also a little sad that my songs didn't get through to LEGACY camp finale night. I was hoping it would, because I really like it, and I question whether it is truly because my songs are bad. But whatever happens I know that GOD has blessed me and he still loves me. I don't want to confess bad things. And if you think that what I'm saying is not true you may go and confess your failures yourself. Just don't pull me down with you. I'm thinking of leaving you.
It's LEGACY camp tomorrow. :) I think I'm happy for many reasons. :) I want to encounter Jesus personally. I want to strengthen my soul, because I know that alone, I am weak and soft-hearted, but with the LORD I am strong and firm. I will hold on to Jesus no matter what.
Amen. :)

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