Legacy camp just ended yesterday.
And as always, I feel as though I've been dreaming and I woke up with the biggest revelation ever.
I will follow God, I will follow Jesus. Surely, because I'm not brave enough to say it to your face I will say it here.
You probably will say I'm mean and all, but I don't want to be so close anymore. I'd still treat you as a friend, but nothing more. I'm only saying this because I'm very sure of it. As everybody knows, I don't have many friends.
Why, you may ask. Because you won't understand. Please, I invite you to think of God as bad and how Jesus doesn't exist and everything. Because no matter what I tell you, you won't believe me. So don't try to convince me God doesn't exist either. Because I know he does and I follow him and I believe in him.
Also, no one can convince you that you are beautiful if you yourself do not believe that you are. I have nothing else to say about your looks.
But above all, please don't attempt to change how I think and feel. Because how I think is how I think and I really don't need anyone to tell me that I should be worried and what because I choose to confess and see good things so if you want to confess bad things over yourself and proclaim it to the world don't do it in front of me.
Lastly, please, please please don't ever say that my problems are 'minuscule' COMPARED to yours. If you were truly a friend, you would never say that. and you would not compare me with you because we are sisters. Because, every one has problems. Every one hurts. And it's not as though my problems aren't legit. They actually are. They are just different. And at least, they matter to God as much as they matter to me. So if you are unwilling to be understanding and just hear me out because you beat me in every single way, then I have nothing to say. Just don't be surprised that I don't talk to you so much anymore.
Unfortunately, I think that's just the way things are gonna be. And I don't think I'm afraid as I was last time because I'm not afraid of being alone anymore. I think even if I have no friends on Earth, I'd still be content. Even if i didn't receive any presents for my 16th birthday i think i couldn't care less anymore. because there's just no point in hanging on. Man will always disappoint.

yeah so that's what i had to say for a very long time and I'm glad I finally got the courage to say it out.I know God will bless me though. I know HE has the power to change my life. even if everyone is taking polaroids without me in it, or if no one wants to take a picture with me or talk to me He will. and one day we will awaken.
I think I received a lot of favour during camp though. I did actually get closer to some people.
how do I say this, I don't actually feel alone but I feel that I'm not particularly close to anyone. like I don't really have a best girl friend.

anyway all that aside it's true that I was really blessed in camp.Majority of my expectations came true. :) like it was really God-given. :)

A butterfly landed.8:08 AM
I love the way you are.♥